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What I Need

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Proverbs 30:7-9

 7) Two things I ask of you;
   deny them not to me before I die:
8) Remove far from me falsehood and lying;
   give me neither poverty nor riches;
   feed me with the food that is needful for me,
9) lest I be full and deny you
   and say, “Who is the LORD?”
or lest I be poor and steal
    and profane the name of my God

“Feed me with the food that is needful for me”

We are in need. Whether we realize it or not.

The irreligious, the unregenerate, the rebellious, are in need of God’s saving grace. They need to see their spiritual poverty and surrender to a loving, merciful, forgiving God.

The religious, self-righteous, ”the redeemed” need to see their good deeds and works and all the things they think win God’s approval are nothing more than filthy rags before a God who is righteousness incarnate.

Whatever end of the spectrum we are on (and you can claim to be saved and still be irreligious) we need God’s grace..

We don’t need another party, or medication, or sexual partner, or bible study, or podcast, or the newest trendiest book on how to get God to do what you want Him to do. We need an encounter with a life changing, heart pursuing God.

What I Need

“Feed me with the food that is needful for me”. 

Not what is comfortable or  easy to swallow, I don’t need my butt patted.

“Feed me with food that is needful for me”.

Conviction to grieve my self righteous, idol worshipping heart.

“Feed me with the food that is needful for me”.

Forgiveness for the places in my heart that my brain wants to think You could ever love or forgive.

“Feed me with the food that is needful for me”.

Joy in the mundane things of life and the understanding that Your love  and grace doesn’t depend on my actions.

“Feed me with the food that is needful for me”.

 Grace to see others and myself through Your eyes God. 

Kevin

Poem: Idols

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You tell me that God will not hear or answer my prayers. You tell me that I can never truly trust God.

You create lists of things that I can “do” to make God happy. Although I have no way of knowing if they really do.

You help me create these lists so I have something “measurable” in which I can judge others cause they are not doing what I am doing.

You make yourself god rather than bringing me to God.

You leave me wanting more and more, and I am never satisfied.

My thirst is never quenched, my tongue is so dry.

I never find peace in you because you are unappeasable.

Anxiety is ever with me because you will reject me if I don’t keep striving and struggling.

I am tired under the weight of your burdens and rules.

Your way never leads to rest and security. Only to other gods who give me empty promises of something better.

You distract me from truth.

You give me just enough to let me feel like I am getting somewhere, but not enough to make me too uncomfortable.

You let me do “good” things so I feel “ok”. Hopefully at least, a little better than my friends at church.

You allow me to abide in mediocrity for as long as I like. You very accommodating in this regard.

You are good at helping find scriptures and excuses for my lack of passion and apathy.

You give false hope of a better life and prosperity.

You lead to disappointment and despair

Your way brings the death of every good thing that God would do in my life.

I hate you

I despise and detest you

I will not allow you to entice me, entreat me, control me

I will tear you down, and expose you for the false savior you are

You will blind me no longer

The gospel will expose you, His Spirit will break your hold, and His blood will destroy you

I will be free

I am free

I am free to love You and be loved by You

I am loved

I am forgiven

I am clean

I am accepted

I am Yours God

I am yours

Kevin

Some Thoughts I Wanted to Share

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I was praying this morning, and God started showing me some more idols in my life that I have. It’s funny how sometimes our prayers will reveal them very quickly if we are paying attention.

We think we can bargain with God to get Him to do stuff for us because we are doing certain things, but it really doesn’t really work that way. There are some things we can have faith that He will do because He promises us in scripture that He will do certain things if we are obedient, but it’s ultimately His grace.

Our  problem is our lack of understanding of what grace really is. His grace is not dependent on our prayers, our goodness, or any other thing that we think we can “hold over His head” to get Him to do what we want. He doesn’t need our talents, gifts, degrees, our muscle, or our “amazing” intellect.

I hate to say this, but He is God. His grace is so much greater than all these things. In defiance of our misconceptions, He uses the weak, the broken, the fearful, the untalented, the most unlikely, to accomplish His purposes.

I read this great post by Jim Thornber today. An excellent reminder of how great God is, despite our abilities (which are God’s anyway). I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

Thank you God for loving me enough to remind me how great You are.

Kevin

Book Review:The Grace of God by Andy Stanley

 

This review is long overdue. I have read Andy’s leadership books and listened to his leadership podcasts, but I haven’t had an opportunity to delve into the theological side of Andy Stanley. Wasn’t quite sure what I was going to hear. I was not disappointed.

I remember always hearing about the “age of grace” before the law of Moses and the “age of the law” after God gave the Israelites the law of Moses and then we go back into an “age of grace” after Christ died, rose, and ascended. I think Andy does a great job walking through much of the old testament showing God’s grace working despite the fact the law of Moses was in effect. It shows that God’s grace is without limit and able to reach out to whomever He decides to pour it out to, as many times as He chooses.

I was glad I did not hear about a sloppy grace that is taught these days. A grace that allows us to keep on sinning and does not demand life change. It is a grace that pursues our heart until we can’t help but change because of our love for Him.

If you want to do a study on grace through the bible this book will be a big help in that study.

Thank God for His grace that He shows us every day!

Kevin

  1. Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from Thomas Nelson Publishers as part of their Book Review Blogger program. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255: “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.”

Testing…Testing….

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Proverbs 27:21 (English Standard Version)

21 The crucible is for silver, and the furnace is for gold,
   and a man is tested by his praise.

I have been having a really good time reading through Pslams and Proverbs. During today’s reading, this scripture stood out to me more than any other.

I have said it many times and many others have said it too: How you react during times of testing and adversity will reveal your character. How you act in your moments of weakness will show you a lot of things about yourself.

Praise is a by-product of His unimaginable grace and love and forgiveness. Praise is not singing a fast song, or our volume, or anything to do with our ability to sing. The Bible says that out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks (Luke 6:45). Proverbs says that we are tested by our praise. Our praise has to do with the condition of our heart. We are (our heart) tested by our praise.

Can you praise Him when it seems like you are losing everything?

Can you praise Him when God doesn’t do what you want Him to do?

Are you carrying bitterness or unforgiveness?

Does the thought of your sinful condition cause you to draw nearer to God? Or pull away?

I have had to ask myself these questions and more at times in my life. Especially when I did not feel like praising Him. The conclusion I normally came to was there was something I was dealing with, such as bitterness, rejection, disappointment. These things will corrupt your heart and shut down your praise more than anything else. This is why we must constantly come back to the cross and repent. Repentance brings us back into right standing with God and shows us His everlasting love, forgiveness and deliverance. Repentance will wash away unforgiveness because we know we are forgiven much. He is not disappointed because He loved us before we knew Him; and because of Jesus’ sacrifice we are not rejected but we are accepted! Thank you God!

You may be in the midst of a test today. You may be dealing with more than one thing at a time. You may be in a situation you see no way out. Others may be watching to see what you are going to do. How will you react?

This is a test of your praise. Testing……Testing……

Will you?

Kevin

Book Review: Transforming Church in Rural America by Shannon O’Dell

When I first get a book, I am almost always apprehensive as to whether it will be a good book or not. From the description it peaked my interest so I requested a review copy on Booksneeze.com. First couple of pages in, I thought I was going to hear one of these peppy cheerleader books about how rural America needs more church planters.

What I read was the struggles, the hurdles, and trials of a guy called to do something for God in the midst of “religious” America. This book applies to more than just rural America, it applies to the church in many places where religion has a stranglehold on so many communities that people no longer hear the gospel anymore. This is a book of overcoming religious strongholds through the love of Christ.

I liked the leadership principles that were laid out in this book. I also like the fact that the struggles Shannon faced  were expressed and not just the successes. I could relate with some of the stories of how the churches I grew up in would operate and you would see very little life change.

Whether you are a church planter or not, this is a great testimony of what a man called by God, with a clear vision can do when he says “I will go.” 

Kevin

Disclosure of Material Connection: I received one or more of the products or services mentioned above for free in the hope that I would mention it on my blog. Regardless, I only recommend products or services I use personally and believe will be good for my readers. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255: “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.”

No Matter What it Takes

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I’ve used the above line before.

 I’ve meant it when I said it.

 At least I thought I did at the time.

It is funny how the gospel will redefine and change every aspect of your life. It not only refines your character, it redefines your life too. What I mean by redefine is that it will change everything. including the very meaning of your words and what they apply to your life from a gospel-centered perspective.

Ten months ago, I thought I would do anything for God and I truly thought I was. During this time, God exposed my heart and showed me how much I hold back from Him. He showed me that I would do whatever it takes for His kingdom ”except”…….. I had a few (and who knows what God will reveal in the future), but I’m sure you could come up with a few yourself.

What I’m finding is that as God works in my life and yours, “No Matter What it Takes” takes on a new meaning. “Worship” takes on a whole new meaning. “Giving”,  ”Community”, ‘Love”, “Forgiveness”; all these things mean something so much greater and deeper than they used to. They are redefined in the light of the gospel and will continue to change as the Holy Spirit continues to open our eyes to what the gospel means in our lives.

“No Matter What it Takes” Jesus, let the light of your face shine into the darkness and reveal those things that are hidden from our understanding, so we can serve you, and love You more and more that we can do whatever it takes to see Your kingdom come and will be done on this Earth as it is in heaven.

Kevin

Dangerous Prayers

The more God has been dealing with me lately, the more I find myself praying more dangerous prayers. You ask “what are dangerous prayers?” Let me share.

I have seen more books on prayer than you can count. Books that have the “key” of getting God to do what YOU want him to do. The whole Prayer of Jabez thing back a few years ago is just a great example of this. If you pray this prayer, God will bless you, and prosper you, and make life free of care and worry. As if we have the power to manipulate the God of the universe who sees every intention in your heart and knows your motives before a word can be uttered from our lips.

Bless me, take care of me, help me at my job, bless my food. There is nothing dangerous about these prayers. There isn’t a whole lot of risk or sacrifice in these prayers. I have even been convicted when we pray before our worship practice to not ask Him to bless our efforts, but to glorify Himself through us in whatever way He sees fit. This is a dangerous prayer. This means that He can take our plans and chuck them out the window and do something else.

The most dangerous prayers are the ones that we lay our agendas and plans down and ask Him to have His way. The most dangerous prayer I ever prayed was “God, change me. Mold me into the image of your Son Jesus.” He has been working on me ever since. The molding process is painful sometimes. Asking Him to change you is very dangerous. He has allowed me to experience the pain of my attitudes and selfishness over and over until I finally surrender to Him allow His Spirit to work in me, to change those things that my selfish heart doesn’t want to change.

What dangerous prayers are burning to come out of your lips?

What  is God laying on your heart that you are resisting to ask for?

What are you afraid it will cost you?

Let’s pray some things that take a faith beyond ourselves. Let’s believe for things that seem impossible. Let’s step out in faith to pray for God to do what seems impossible.

Will you pray with me?

 

Kevin

Book Review: The Jesus You Can’t Ignore by John MacArthur

I would call this book more of a position paper than a book. MacArthur makes a strong, sound, biblical case against the postmodernist, emergent view of Jesus which portrays Jesus as a meek, gentle, hippie, who never confronted people or truly showed any passion for God’s Word or contempt for the religious systems that were in place that made it even harder to come to God.

MacArthur gives example, after example, after example, after example where Jesus confronted and called out the religious leaders of the day, challenging them, exposing them, and calling them to repentance. Almost to an exhausting degree. MacArthur does a very thorough job explaining expositorally through each scripture he uses as a basis for his position. A position I totally agree with.

If you want a real simple, easy, read, that gets to the point, I don’t know if this book is for you. It has tons of real good information and scripture, but was even a chore for me to finish, and I love to read and study the scripture. It had a hard time keeping my attention cause I already believe the same things he laid out in this book, so it was much more information than I needed.

I would recommend this book to the “intellectuals” who would argue for the post-modern, emergent view of Jesus. The only way to get around John Mac Arthur would be to totall y reject the scriptures and fall into full-blown heresy. It’s that clear cut and concise in this book.

So, I would say this book is a good book, but I had a hard time keeping my attention for as long as the book is.

Kevin

Two Churches in One Building

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I’m not talking about two churches that rent or use the same building.

Yesterday, I was talking to my wife about reaching more people that are hurting and broken, and later on  I had a vision of two churches in one building. One group was dressed in white robes, the other was dressed in black, kind of gothic looking.

I thought this is kind of weird, and I didn’t understand this and then God spoke to me:

Those dressed in black represent the broken, addicted, wounded, afflicted, harrassed by the demonic. They represent a part of My body that most people don’t want to see or deal with. They are people that a prayer and a hug won’t help solve their problems. They have come out of dark circumstances that even now seek to ensnare and swallow them right back to where they were. They are struggling in their faith and knowledge of God on a daily basis. They desperately want to know Me, but like sheep without a sheperd they wander, they’re afraid, they’re disillusioned, they’re hungry (physically and spiritually), and they’re lonely.

Those dressed in white are the people the world and “those who have it together” want to see. They stay huddled together. They have great lives. They have everything they need. They have each other so they really have no need to seek friendship from outside those in white. They are happy and content to live thier lives undisturbed by the things that are going on in the world. They keep their robes from getting dirtied by the people in black and certainly don’t have much time outside of their happy lives to help them. Drama is forbidden by these in white so they never connect with those in black, but they are glad they come, cause “they need it”.

We have two churches in many buildings today. We know we have hurt and broken people around us out in the world, but don’t know about the one sitting next to us in church. Or what’s even worse is we know about the ones sitting next to us but we don’t want to be bothered by them. Worse than that is that those in white are just as messed up but hide in good deeds and religious cliches and worthless drivel. Here’s what we know about those in black. They are stubborn. They don’t want to serve in church. They don’t come to church regularly.  They don’t listen to our counsel. They take way too much time and energy to invest in. This is true in a lot of cases. What’s also the truth is that there are those in white who would much rather hang out with those people who “have it all together” or feel like we can help with minimal effort so we can look like we are fulfilling our “biblical obligations”. Where is the character of Jesus in either?

Am I striking a nerve? I hope so.

Which church are you a part of? God wants to confront those in white, the self-righteous, and bring them to a state of brokenness and repentance and He wants to bring the rebellious and broken to a place of healing, salvation, and restoration.

The cross is here for both. It here for the rebellious, hurting, broken, lost and the forgotten, but it is also here for the stubborn, self-righteous, arrogant, prideful, and the apathetic. There is only one church when we come to the cross. It is here for all and it’s power alone can truly make us one.

Kevin

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